I gave it some thought for the past few days about everything that I have went through past few years, and I have begun changing some things around, there was more small things than I initially thought. If there really are others that struggle with the same things, I really would like to discuss this matter about small things.
As for things that I had changed, there were quite a few, even though small, but to know if something about that will have any effect, months could pass to see if it has any effect.
Few bigger things that I had changed:
Exercising - I never exercised that much before, but for few years not I haven’t exercised almost at all, but exercised sometimes, never were quite able to exercise at home, I need external stimulation for that, so I have started going to the gym, if only for up to an hour every few days, will have to see if that leads me anywhere, maybe it will help with sleeping better, that’s the main reason for that.
Stress - Biggest thing that I have given most of my thoughts, I almost don’t have any stress anymore, well, sometimes, for example if important data is the matter on a “broken computer”, like faulty RAID array, working on things like that is stressing, but I lived on stress every day before, working my balls off, trying everyday to be better than everyone else, because as my name suggest, I am a perfectionist, if I’m not at the top, I have to work to be there, if I don’t like the project that I’m working on, I work harder on it till I like it. After starting working in no time I became one of the best in the company, at least in my field, and because of that a lot of stress went off my shoulders, because I was better than others, I learned to do things quicker, I reached my goal, meaning I had less stress, so yesterday I have joined a project just for fun, to challenge myself.
Smoking - this is the one thing that I don’t want to change back, I quit smoking cigarettes completely around 2 years ago, I have my nicotine fix with vaping, or like some would say, with electronic cigarettes, it’s not the same, but it is working very well with my addiction, I’m happy with that, even though I sometimes miss normal cigarettes, but never slip back and not even try one.
Other smaller things would include eating habits, getting out of bed just after waking up and not being lazy ass for up to half an hour, showering every day (yes I had been slacking off on that and showering every other day, only sometimes every day, sometimes not at all at weekends).
There is one new thing that I had picked up for about a month now, every day before going to sleep I am trying to meditate, not just that, I just calm myself, clear my head and try to go through my day step by step, when I did got out of bed, when and what I ate, what did I do today for what time approximately, that way I sometimes start to remember things, that I wouldn’t just told normally if I would have been asked what have I did that day, it helped me to become more concentrated through the day, it is starting to become like a game now of what so interesting I could tell myself in the evening.