Tl;dr at the end. Thank you.
I have to memorize rule books. There are a lot of sections and complicated language.
To be honest, I have never memorized before. I had started earlier and started memorizing them 20 sections at a time. But I memorized them on day one = couldn’t recall some much of it in first revision on the same day = then I wait for the next day = revise it once again (difficult to recall) = then I start doubting myself and give up and never revise it again.
I know of the 0 7 15 30 60 days revision plan. But I’m so scared if I’ll actually memorize these things after revision? What if I wait for one week then 15 days then 30 days and don’t remember a thing? This terrifies me and I get anxious. I seriously doubt my capacity to memorize and have really low self confidence in this regard.
Despite my genuine interest in my subjects they terrify me because I think I will not able to memorize it all. I don’t know how to trust myself on that. On day one of memorizing, I don’t recall much of it. That demotivates me. On day two, I forget more. That demotivates me. On third day, I give up with this plan.
I want to know how much time does it take to create permanent or long term memory? Should I trust my brain and just revise things on time despite how hard they seem to recall? If you have memorized before for your exams, in how much time could you say that you can remember it and be confident in it?
I want to complete one session of memorizing in two months. Then start with the same 50 sections everyday cycle again for next two months. Then again next two months until I my pass my exam.
But you see I’m so scared, what if the difficulty I face in recalling continues even after two months?
Basically tl;dr should I memorize and revise my lessons regularly on time and even if it seems hard to recall should I just keep going? Does brain work like that? When on second revision I seem to have forgotten everything, I sincerely doubt my brain and feel put down by myself. I don’t know how human brain works. What I do know is that I’ll be disciplined and push information into this brain regularly but how do I know that the brain will do its work and two months from today I’d have memorized most, if not all, of the rules? I hope I make sense. Please help.
I’ll break it down to show why I am worried. I want to make sure that you fully understand what I’m saying:
Today I memorize 50 sections from my book in the afternoon
In the evening I revise it and face difficulty in recalling. I complete 50 sections with low confidence. And memorize the next 50 sections.
On next day, I start doubting myself if I remember what I had memorized on day 1. Now I have to revise day 1 and day 2 work and also memorize fresh new 50 sections.
I cannot do it all in one day. Otherwise I’ll keep revising old stuff the whole day. So I need to follow 0 7 15 30 days revision plan. But it looks scary. If I’m not able to recall it today and tomorrow how can I recall it 7, 15, 30 days later?