YES. I put not sure because it’s very on-and-off.
What seems to trigger it is when I’m already irritated and happen to notice it. (interestingly, I will be completely happy until the very moment I consciously NOTICE the sounds, even if those sounds were already present for a long time in the environment and I was completely fine with it before I put my attention on it).
It’s kind of like, when I’m in a good mood, I might completely miss all the sounds, movements, gestures of others that might bother me. Once a bad mood strikes (or am focusing very intently on doing something without any interruption) and I somehow “notice” how someone is, say, “scratching their head”, I might somehow become irritated, even if they always did that before. And it seems to be highly physiological, and I can identify it’s not the other person’s fault – it’s like a personal bodily-psychological-emotional irritation, and I am absolutely fascinated by the mechanism of how this works. It’s also dangerous, because if I were to somehow not be aware of this, I might actually become aggressive and blame other people. I think that’s the reason why when I feel the urge to blame someone for anything, I realize, it’s not just them making sounds or scratching their head or slurping soup or whatever I dislike – it’s my own temporary irritation with that and inability to cope.
There are some coping mechanisms that I use and I’d like to hear yours. One of them focusing my attention on my gut, because a lot of the emotional discomfort feels like it’s coming from my gut. So if I feel irritated, I just imagine the discomfort of my gut. I might imagine my gut “filling” with something that calms it down, like a kind of satisfying milk or something. There are lots of meditative/imaginative exercises, I keep exploring how to emotionally regulate. One is to have thoughts about my thoughts. So if I’m thinking now, I’m thinking about how I’m thinking about how I’m thinking – which kind of becomes a surprising loop, but being aware of my thoughts can create some kind of stability in not just gut emotions, but also my mental motivations and understandings. Imagining “peace” or “relief” also works. I was reading in Wikipedia about Buddhism, and there was some suggestion to “imagine boundless space” and “imagine nothingness”… that also seems to have an effect.
The profound thing about misophonia is how much is underscores the limitations of my self control and understanding of how “I” work and feel